From fear to fearless

"Yesterday my knees were buckling, my breath was off. It was rapid and shallow as if I was preparing myself to seek safety at any time. I wasn’t able to think straight because all I could feel was fear. All my fears, which I’ve been battling for 5 years, were coming together in one room. In public. This time I decided to react differently and not to fly but, instead, to straighten my back, put on my high heels, do my hair and walk into that room and face the fear.

As my partner said “you know you will get hit so prepare to get hit”. Don’t avoid the verbal hitting, just go for it. And I did. And I came to realise that when I am openly admitted to myself I was going to get hit, the hitting didn’t caught me by surprise and second by second, minute by minute I could feel the anxiety drifting away in my body whilst I was in the midst of facing and therefore eliminating my fears. And yes as expected, whilst receiving verbal punches in my face.

Today is the day after and honestly. I was anticipating on feeling bruised but none of this. Instead I'm experiencing a new kind of energy, the one that is telling me I know in my core that this can be done. Call it the area “ where the magic happens”, call it “newborn confidence”, call it “ more self-esteem” or just pure happiness!

Everyone has fear. It is how you deal with it that matters. Allowing it to limit you is a life suck. Seeing it as a challenge that needs to be overcome and making a plan for it empowers you and puts you in control of your life. It is not enough to say, "I am afraid of that". You have to look at why you are afraid and what it would take to not be afraid. You can break it into baby steps that match your comfort level of change.

If we don’t risk, we don’t learn. We don’t grow.

Just a drop of optimism I like to share. X"